-ANGEL-
Clarice,
u nid to calm down.
wad u have been doin is unacceptable and intolerant.
u recked ppl of their rights, killed their hopes, let them down, caused them to lose confidence, turned them into a monster AND cause them to lose their trust in others.
ure a terrible person.
wad happened to the patient and forgiving girl tt we once knew?
wad happened to the girl, hu wld always take the blame even though she didnt do anything wrong?
control urself.
u urself ARE turning into a monster day by day.
-DEVIL-
Wads the point of tinking of wad i have done?
those ppl in the past caused me to be wad i have become today.
i was nice to them, but they treated me otherwise.
i gave them everything they wanted, gave them the respect they needed, was there for them whenever they needed help.
but wad did they do in return?
they backstabbed me, treated me like a slave, and when i really needed comfort, they start to add salt into the wounds instead.
everyone turned against me.
including one of my BEST frens in the past.
every single one of them took me for granted.
i wanted to fit in.
but no matter how much i tried,
i ended up wif nth.
i killed my future, i killed my reputation and MOST of all, i murdered everything tt i once had.
i sacrificed almost everything for them.
but THEY didnt giv a dam.
sure, i changed bak to the original me 2 yrs ago.
but wad happened?
the same cycle repeated.
ive lost hope, ive lost confidence and ive lost the trust i have in others.
no matter how much i tried to become the forgiving and patient girl i was b4,
i just cldnt do it.
everything tt everyone did to me in the past was instilled in me.
-Angel-
I turned to Lord for help, and He DID help.
and im very grateful for that.
He would never treat me otherwise unlike the rest of us.
With Him, i was able to lead a more peaceful and happier life AND i managed to turn bak into hu i was b4.
But, some things happened, and i became the sinister me again.
He was very patient with me no matter how many sinful things i have done.
But time and again ive let Him down.
I deserve to be punished and thrown into the fire.
I do not deserve to be forgiven.
In the past, no matter how many people treated me tt way, i endured everything they said, including hurtful things and forgiven them for wad they had done.
i cld let go of wad they did.
and if they provoked me when i was feeling down,
i wld just be patient wif them and kip quiet.
If i did just one thing accidentally which happen to be insulting to them, they wld start shooting all kinds of things at me.
but, i didnt blame them for wad they did.
Instead i prayed for them.
Everything went well then.
-DEVIL-
I do not want to care abt them anymore.
i wan to just erase everything.
every single thing in my head.
Leave everything behind.
Forgive them of wad they had done which made an impact in my life.
And then leave them alone to do wadever they want.
-ANGEL-
You can never run away from the problems that are right infront of your face.
u cant run away frm ur responsibility.
there are many others who needs help from people like us.
they are still hidden from the Truth that we all know.
i nid to accomplish this mission that i have.
Tolerate them for wad they have done.
Forgive them for wad they did.
wad they have done was not on purpose.
im sure they knew in their hearts tt wad they had done was wrong.
its just tt they cldnt express how apologetic were they.
everyone has good in them.
its just tt most of us cannot express it well and so turned to the easier way, death.
no one can run away frm wad they have done.
all i can do is to just mend wadever i did.
the rest is all up to them.
Never turn to that path again.
Leave it there and place a sign there for others to avoid this path.
sometimes doin somethin good may not be tot of one of the happiest things.
but doin it benefits very much.
Do not be a selfish person.
Do not lie anymore.
Face the problem if there is one and conquer it.
if u wan others not to do the same thing to u, dun do it to them.
Judge urself b4 judging anyone else.
Just becoz u experienced these unhappy things b4, doesnt mean tt others shld experience it also just to noe how it feels like.
Turn to the Light for help.
Never turn to the dark.